April 12, 2011

All I feel is strange, in your perfect world.

Lose yourself in the music. I don't think there's anything better you can do. Forget about all your problems, tomorrow's bills you have to pay, the messy pile of laundry, your insignificant and rather non-existent love life. Feeding the cats. Picking out the right outfit for tomorrow.

Can I fill you up with my emptiness, tonight? Can I hold your hand as we slip into the light?

Can I live on my own, for the rest of my life? No one to keep me company. You know what kind of company I'm talking about. It really makes me wonder. Relationships all around me. Some steady, some genuinely happy with their fair share of ups and downs, some with a constant facade. Some for the sake of convenience. No, I don't think that pair of stillettos is going to make her love you any more than she actually does(n't).

Take me away; a secret place, a sweet escape.

I want to go back to the time of high waisted skirts. Puffy sleeves. Tailored trousers. Waistcoats and blouses. Long summer dresses. All that's back now. Funny how fashion works in a cycle.

Written in the stars, a million miles away.

Every song reminds me of a different period of time. Fur Immer Jetzt and it reminds me of rickshaw rides back in January 2010 with Ash. Open Car reminds me of serenading, in his dad's studio. Someone Special reminds me of jamming sessions on my terrace. Jizz in my Pants reminds me of two day long sleepovers with Sashimi. Last of a Dying Breed reminds me of good times, chilling with some whiskey on the rocks at noon, with people I feel very disconnected with, now.


  1. oh come on, don't tell me even you've started using that one sentence one paragraph format!
    the flow seems hurt.

    otherwise nice post :)

  2. While I like how this is written, it has "fragmentation" written all over it. And I wish you would feel anything but that! I'm coming home in a month...we'll make you happy :D

  3. ass u very well know, this is my kind of post. i love it. things dont have to flow, thoughts dont have to have structure. just let it spilll. love it

  4. I love how we all have so much truth to say and how beautiful it sounds.
    Love this :-) xx

  5. I so relate to the memories held to every song. Besides photographs, I think it's one of the best ways to Remember.