November 26, 2010

That's what YOU think.

Take a deep breath, and relax. It's over. At least.. that's what she told herself. After almost a year of confusion and not knowing what she was doing, weighing her decisions over and over again to try and make sense to herself and justifying her every move was no easy task, that was for sure, but now, she was doubting herself all over again. Did she play her cards right? Not really, no. She had to stack them back up and redistribute them to go for another round, but life is too short for that. It doesn't come with a remote control to rewind and pause to that exact second when the introduction happened. She knew she was a masochist. Or she wouldn't have let it go on for so long. She knew she could very well have the power and the control. If only she wasn't so weak and emotional.
So now, after many 'almost-ending-and-then-going-back-to-the-beginning's, almost-heartbreak and almost-a lot of other things, she decided she was through. There was never going to be a 'what if', what was done was done. She had made all the wrong choices, and now it was time to make the right one.
She was quite content with herself.
Wieder geht es von vorne los.

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